the sad sad life of mimi.
so be ready.
coz itz gonna be f*ckin' jiwang.
*hahakzZZZ!!!!!
back to what you know
geylang,not yet,maybe never.baju raya,pakai last few year punye lah,preps,malas lah,this year it seems that i''m not into this hari raya thingy...well 2008,a year i wanna forget...
so i spend the whole of yesterday nite polising rims with autosol,pipes,sparying rims,with gizmo,wak,along and cheong. yeah,till we get to see our faces on the rims uh.so i went back a 4am.bob an came but we were on the verge of leaving.well wak have been wanting me to stay at sengkang back again like last time.ask me to bring my laptop and everything there permenantly,maklumlah org tu pc rosak kan.tgk la macam mana.well aunt also always asking me to...
maybe it'd be sengkang again tomorrow!!!
look where u stand, & look where i am,i have nothing to lose...
"see,you're not trying", those were your words that i'll always remember...
what do u think it was easy.yeah easy for u to say.be where i am rite now,in my shoes,then u'll understand.some of my friends found out already.it isnt a closed secret anymore.do u noe how much shit i get from my friends?some got angry,some worry for my sake.and u can say that im not trying?!i kept quiet when u said that,coz i knew u either get mad at what im gonna say or it will make u cry.i guessed that u have already knew my feelings.well not totaly,but u know.how can u plan all that just becoz u wanna meet me. as i say,'ll never meet u when u are with him.sometimes i just dont understand why i keep seeing u,when i already know the consequences.well maybe i'm just lonely.i dont understand myself.what will only happen is when u realize that its time to go,or i'm gonna realize its time for me to go.we can't go on like this.how long can we just go on like this.all i wanted from u is for u to smile and be happy,whatever happens.even if situations ask me to go,well if it makes everything better then i go.so i have to talk to u. well, we have to have a real good talk.lets make everything clear.whatever happens...
you'll know...
that will be good enough for me...
hopefully,
as i've said i have nothing to lose,
coz i've lost everything...
**~botak
Sunday, September 28, 2008 // 11:43 PM